Resistance is Futile

There are three things I know about myself; I hate change, I resist change and my “story” is that change is not my friend. Simultaneously there are two things I know about the Universe; everything changes and resistance is futile.

Last week was a whopper, a butt kicker, a doosie (insert your favorite phrase here). In the midst of said week things were coming at me from all directions. My survival method kicked in, I put my head down and plowed through. Finally, on Thursday morning space opened up in my schedule and I had a moment to hit pause.  The feel of the sun on my skin and the sound of the wind chimes on the porch softened the gripping on my body and in my mind. Sitting in quiet reflection I was able to step back and become aware of why I felt so shut down mentally and emotionally. During this pause I became aware that my friend resistance was sitting next to me.
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Books on the Bedside Table

Reading has been a lifelong source of inspiration and growth for me since I was a child. Many a day of my childhood was spent in another world, reading the day away. Walter Farley’s book, The Runaway Stallion moved me so as a child that I decided to become a horse racing jockey (true story). I wrote my first book about horse racing when I was 6, cut it into small squares and bound it with yarn, proving my dedication to both horses and literature.

My time and interest for writing has come and gone through the years, but reading remains central to my growth personally and as a teacher of Yoga. One of the challenges to teaching yoga and running a studio is that my attention is divided into so many roles leaving little time for reading fiction, so yoga philosophy and spiritual texts are what fill my bedside table. When I find myself feeling stagnant and in need of inspiration in my practice or teaching, I reach for these books to distill down the central teachings of yoga or the spiritual traditions.

On My Reading Table:

Daily InspirationThe Book of Awakening by Mark Nepo is my daily companion. More often than not his writings apply deeply to some edge of exploration or growth that is taking place in my life. This is my current daily meditation and reflection read that I dive into each morning.
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I Have No Enemies

This week I have taught so much yoga to so many people of all ages, coming from different backgrounds, different generations, different mindsets. I watch their bodies but I see their souls as they sit peacefully, move slowly, and lie in stillness. I’ve watched the moon set as the sun, rising on the other side of the earth, casts a shadow that covered the full moon. I watched the moon rise again today, full and luminous. It is the same moon that is seen by people all over the word, of all colors, races, persuasions and religions. I’ve been an a place of deep peace, living, making my way in the world, just like all the students I have taught.

When I turn on the news and hear of great turmoil about memos releasing and opinion and words that spin around and around. Pause…I just imagine all of the people that I meet, making their way in the world regardless of all the categories we assign, regardless of all the places that they live and I don’t see any borders. And I don’t see any enemies. I just see souls and dreams and hope and struggle and people making their way on this earth just like I am, just like you are. Paraphrasing John Lennon,” I imagine all the people living life in peace.” Brene Brown’s research tells us “when you move in, it’s hard to hate.”

You may call me a dreamer but I’m not the only one. Peace out my friends. Love one another. Believe we are all one people living on the earth. We are all one.~Jai Bhagwan, Susan

If You Don’t Become the Ocean

If you don’t become the ocean, you’ll be seasick everyday. ~Leonard Cohen
The morning after Hurricane Earl kissed the outer edge of Tulum I left my beach side bungalow and walked to the edge of the sea. Despite the howling winds and pelting rain of the previous night, the waters were quiet, the sun shining softly. As I walked the beach the now tranquil waves flowed in and flowed out, the inhale and exhale of the Caribbean Sea. More evidence of the storm, an uprooted palm tree bobbed at the waters edge, displaying how closely intertwined was the cycle of storm and calm.
It was not lost on me that nature was a mirror of my inner experience, storm neighboring calm. Two weeks earlier I was shaken to the center by the sudden death of my closest friend. At that moment the inner winds were blowing, my mind swirling, seeking to find peace, meaning, answers. How inconceivable that life can be full and end so unexpectedly. How unbelievable that my practice asked me to ride the tide of loss and find inner stillness. How unimaginable that such tranquil beauty could abut a raging storm, yet how similar to our human experience.

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The Next Best Journey

Today, my 50th Birthday, I am reflecting on what I have learned over the past decade. The past 10 years have been greatly trans-formative, freeing, shackling, inspiring, illuminating, full of gain and loss. I entered the 40’s feeling strong, unbreakable, and courageous after overcoming the difficulties with health in my younger years. I felt unstoppable actually. Movement, challenge, change, exploring, creativity and passion were all themes that I explored. And grief, loss and inner searching entered time and again, bringing me to my knees in a new and different way each time. And now I come out at 50 know these things to be true for me, my truth today:

Be kind
Sit with great intensity
Adventure outward and explore within
Move slowly whenever you want
Pay attention
Practice gratitude
Surrender control of everyone but myself
Explore silence
Seek stillness
Create a simple, sustainable life
Trust myself and be trustworthy
Hold on lightly, everything changes
Love deeply even when you know it is not forever
Live in awe of Nature
Be willing to be WOWED by the Universe
Trust in the Greater Good
Be open to the next revelation, and then the next
Live in alignment with inner truth

Thank you all my friends for the wonderful birthday wishes.  Om Namo Shivaya. I bow to the highest Consciousness within. I am deeply honored to be on the continual journey we call life. I look forward to evolving into the next best version of myself. 

Jai Bhagwan,