Fallen leaves disguise the path, drawing my gaze toward the upper reaches of the forest.
Barren trees open up a landscape of tree trunks and branches in myriad colors of grey and brown.
Fingers of sunlight travel down jagged ravines, highlighting the remaining green and yellow foliage.
Rocky bluffs and cliffs appear, showing the rugged character of rock worn down by time.
The foundation of the earth is unmasked as November slips from colorful glory into quiet release.
Center stage, the forest’s scaffolding is exposed.
The hidden is revealed.
This morning’s reading from The Book of Awakening hit very close to home for me. “If you try to teach before you learn, or leave before you stay, you will lose your ability to try.” ~Mark Nepo.
After an intense week of dealing with long held inner fear about safety over my health insurance situation, I found myself feeling like a deer in the headlights and simultaneously feeling like a caged animal, fighting for survival. Living with a complicated chronic illness from my teens I now enjoy good health, yet the residue of the illness not only lies in my body that requires care, but in the subtle places within me that store fear, manifesting as a strong need to ground, root, survive and feel safe in order to thrive. This fear, I realize, is always with me in small ways, always scanning for threat, always afraid to STAY lest what I commit to staying with be grasped out of my hands.
This past Friday as I dug through the details of the health insurance changes, the lack of adequate coverage offered in my area sunk in. I felt an anger come over me in a way that I have not felt in years. Anger towards those who have never experienced a fight for their life therefore holding indifference (knowing this is an assumption) regarding the dire need for healthcare for all people. Anger toward those who hold jobs that come with secure benefits resulting in the same indifference (knowing this is an assumption). Anger toward those who write the laws, those who profit from illness, those who hold judgement against me for using western medicine, those who have harmed me, against myself for choosing freedom and a creative life rather than remaining tied to heath care security. Anger towards those who label anger as bad, wrong, and un-yogic. Anger towards those who believe a teacher of yoga must always be centered and calm. Anger towards, Anger towards, ANGER TOWARDS…SO MUCH ANGER!
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Many of the classes taught at alleyCat focus on Kripalu Yoga. Kripalu Yoga – more than just a stretch…Posture by posture, breath by breath, the mind/body integration that is Kripalu Yoga awakens the deepest levels of self-awareness. For it is through such recognition that a new level of caring and compassion is attained. Kripalu means compassion and this is a yoga of consciousness, practiced not only on the mat, but just as importantly “off the mat,” as well.
Referred to as a “meditation in motion,” Kripalu Yoga is practiced through a unique combination of disciplines. Asanas (postures), meditation, devotion, and selfless service are intended to establish a conscious communication of body, mind, and spirit.
The practice combines moving through progressive stages of relaxation, absorption of sensation and movement, conscious attunement to experience, and free expression of released energy. Kripalu Yoga begins with listening to the wisdom of your body and then focusing your mind on the awareness of the posture and your internal state, taking into account sensations, emotions, and thoughts. Read More »